Depression is like waking up to a gray overcast sky everyday of your life. It’s like being cold, and not being able to get warm. Smiling and laughter, joy and happiness, are things you’ve felt, on mute. Like turning the volume down on life.
Finally back from Gold Coast after a week! How do people live there man. Seriously the wind could blow your mind off. Also, eating out there? Holy throne of terra it’s expensive. So here’s a recap:
It’s probably not the most accurate, especially day 4 and day 5.
Our flight was 10pm, so we’d reach GC at around 7am.
I saw the stars. Not your usual few stars. I mean a billion stars as far as the eye can see. I think I even saw the Big Dipper. I also saw the Sun rise. That’s two down for the bucket list. Oh and we bought AUD$172 worth of food on the first day. Hilarious when all our estimates were at least short by $80. Ate Nandos for the first time (8 ribs set), tasted like liquid gold, but probably because we were so hungry even air tasted like gold. For dinner the nine of us cooked Y-Bone steak, baked potatoes and some veg that I seem to not be able to recall.
We’re supposed to pick up Arthur at the GC airport at 1240. Here’s the kicker: he missed his transit flight from Brisbane to Sydney to Gold Coast. So he took a 3 hour bus ride from Brisbane to Gold Coast. And we still picked him up at 1240. So we grabbed him, dropped him off and then… damn I can’t remember. We did something alright, just can’t remember what. Was it resupply? Damn.
DREAMWORLD. HAVE YOU HEARD OF IT?
We took the Big 8. Truth be told, I found Dreamworld to be underwhelming. I mean like, they have raving reviews all over the place but it was pretty meh. Okay maybe except for the AVPX and Tower of Terror. Wipeout was pretty awesome as well. The Claw just pissed me over by making me face the same direction as it was going down, so basically I was compressed into my seat. And it hurt. After that we went shopping at Pacific Plaza. And then pasta for dinner.
White Water World. HAVE YOU HEARD OF IT?
I found this to be infinitely more fun than Dreamworld to a certain extent. But it may be because of the water element. Or maybe simply because we were freezing our asses off after the first ride. Don’t get me wrong, the water is fine, but the wind turned all of us into walking ice cubes. Hilarious stuff happened there, good lord I cannot explain how hard we laughed. We decided to finish off dreamworld and visited the animals there. I’m very sad I couldn’t hug a Koala Bear. Very. Sad. A lot. After that was dinner at home and we wanted to explore the city but we went to the clubbing side. A few incidents happened along, like getting lost and almost running out of gas. Oh and almost hitting a cyclist. Ate Hungry Jacks by the beach. Got assaulted by the wind and the sand. Might sue them.
I can’t remember what we did… I remember we went out… We cooked steak for dinner… Then blank. I think we went to the beach to collect sand and play in the sea, except that the sea probably would swallow me and Jason, so we settled for standing on the beach and waiting for the waves to hit us.
Edit: We went to Mt Tamberine on Day 5! I remember now. Wine tasting and all that good jazz.
Shopping spree of the highest level. We were at this… Harbortown? Basically all factory outlets, shopped till we dropped. Ate Macdonalds. Realized that they didnt have McSpicy. Ate their McChicken and I realized it was in fact a giant McNugget in a bun. After that we went to this seafood restaurant called Galaxy…? Had Lobster for the first time. Let me tell you it won’t be my last time. Tasted oh so awesome.
I think through most of the nights, we were all asking about how the dating lives used to be for GK and Karen and Joke and April. Hearing the stories (and hearing great mysteries being revealed) gave all of us a good laugh. Actually, Arthur was practically the main joke for each dinner session. Many lulz were had. But I digress. But to hear about how dating was like in the past (basically, batshit insane) and it makes me appreciate the Church we have now more.
But after this trip, after sitting down and clearing my mind at the jetty (yes our house has a jetty, or a dock, or something for boats to park lah)…
Back to working life? Yeah, well, at least it’s a 3 day week for this week.
Also, just beat Heart of the Swarm campaign. I found the story/music to be great. Maybe because I’m such a biased fan of Starcraft. I have yet to set foot into multiplayer. Maybe tomorrow.
Also looking forward to playing SimCity.
Oh and we’re planning for Taipei already.
|“No Fear! No Pity! NO REMORSE!” - Wacry of the Black Templars|
Unless you are a psychopath, you DO have feelings, you have just denied or forgotten them. After more than a decade of numbness, I found mine again when I was helped to realize that my feelings are legitimate, because I am the only one experiencing them. No one can deny them, because no one else is having them, they are yours alone.
My reaction to feelings of saddness and fear, even affection, had been to deny them when they arose, because that’s what I had been taught to do (by whom or what, I do not know, and it doesn’t even matter). I had to cling on to the fake image of myself I was showing everyone, and that fake me did not have real feelings. “All is well with me!” Smile, joke, wink wink. You know what I’m talking about.
Showing feelings was to lose control, and I never lost control. I thought telling others you had feelings was like giving them poker chips, power over you, but life is not a motherfucking game. Life is what happens here and now, and it’s too short to be afraid of silly games that do not even exist. It’s too short for suffering for naught.
- Repost from Reddit
So I’ve gotten hold of a size 1 brush.
I feel like Picaso as of right now when I paint.
Master Chief: Cortana. Cortana, do you read? Cortana, come in.
Master Chief: How?
Cortana: Oh, I’m the strangest thing you’ve seen all day?
Master Chief: But if we’re here-
Cortana: It worked. You did it. Just like you always do.
Master Chief: So how do we get out of here?
Cortana: I’m not coming with you this time.
Master Chief: What?
Cortana: Most of me is down there. I only held enough back to get you off the ship.
Master Chief: No. That’s not-! We go together.
Cortana: It’s already done.
Master Chief: I am not leaving you here!
Cortana: John… I’ve waited so long to do that.
Master Chief: It was my job to take care of you.
Cortana: We were supposed to take care of each other. And we did.
Master Chief: Cortana- please Wait-
Cortana: Welcome home, John.
This thing was a beast to paint. Drained my entire (not so full) Abaddon Black base and left me with a quarter of my primer (also, not that full). I’m looking at it right now beside me on my computer and I’m just like, happy. Truly happy.
Here’s a picture of it with one of the panels with the Black Templar upgrade
I’m not satisfied with the red cross, it’s too dull. I want that thing to shine. I want that thing to stick out like a sore thumb.
That’s mephistron red. Probably will wash it and put a brighter red on it.
Your thoughts, fellow wargamers?